another day another time

my mind races in the silence..the darkness of the night cast shadows around my heart...
i am here: sitting, watching, waiting...for what? i do not know...
my head doesn't trust the emotions of my heart, making the fire of conflict burn around me...
for a part of me knows the death of our passion is near, yet i can not let go..
i crave the comfort of your embrace...
our connection is like an electric bolt burning from one to the other
unable to break the bond - unable or unwilling is to be determined...
for i feel like a pawn in your game, a secret that you are ashamed to reveal...
why i ask? for i am all that i can be yet for the you that isn't enough...
i can go - knowing you touched a part of me that i thought was gone..
but wondering why it couldn't last?
i want that happy giddy feeling of a first date but i want it to last...
i dream of a time i awake every day to the sight of my lover, my best friend, my soul mate...